New Moon Spread

Two back-to-back spread blog posts? Is this for real?

Well, I felt like I had to do a New Moon check-in, since I started this whole thing with a Full Moon Spread.

Are we already at the new moon? Yikes!

You may remember from my Full Moon Spread and Ritual post, that I set out to try to conquer and release some of my bad habits. If I’m being honest with you…. I’m not entirely sure I have released them all. But life is about progress, not perfection. I have made strides in some ways for sure.

This New Moon on March 6, I want to check in to see what intentions I should be setting to help me on the path to shedding myself of things that do not serve me.

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I chose my Hanson Roberts deck for this reading because this deck is really good for readings about internal growth. This reading was full of surprises, none the least that every single card was reversed. Sigh.

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Let’s just dig in.

  1. Where am I in my life right now? Ten of Swords Reversed

    The ten of Swords has some powerful freaking imagery, yeah? A guy is literally being stabbed in his back.

    How the hell is that supposed to make me feel right now?

    If this were upright, I would say that I am currently enduring a painful loss or betrayal (hello, backstabbers?), but the reversal adds a unique spin to the card.

    I usually read reversals as something being blocked, but that’s hard in a reading where every single card is reversed. I mean, come on.

    So, what about the imagery here? If a man with ten swords in his back were upside down, I guess the swords would be… falling out, right?

    Okay, so the card is suggesting a time of loss or betrayal or significant change, but the pain is about to be over. I’m about to feel relief as the swords fall from my back.

    That said, this year did start in a rocky way, and I am about to endure a pretty significant life change… but that is a story for another time.

  2. What is blocking me from growing? What do I need to leave behind? The Hierophant Reversed

    The Hierophant is basically the pope. He is a religious teacher. This card often stands for The Man, or some sort of strict organization or bureaucracy.

    It’s establishment and rules and order.

    Reversed? The card is often about self-reliance and no longer needing the chains of society or whatever structure you relied on previously.

    In the context of something that is blocking me, it seems that I am not yet trusting in my own self-reliance that much. I need to shed structure. I need to be free to be me.

  3. What intentions should I set? Two of Swords Reversed

    This is a card of indecision. Plain and simple. A woman is weighing her options, and she can’t see all the details–let alone the outcome.

    Reversed? This is a card about needing to trust your gut to make decisions. And about being decisive in general.

    I have been spending a lot of time trying to work on my intuition, and I believe this card is telling me to set intentions regarding using my intuition to help guide me through some upcoming difficult decisions.

  4. What knowledge do I need to gain to manifest my intentions? The Empress Reversed

    The Empress is about feminine energy at its highest manifestation. She is intuition and creativity and power and fertility. She is self-awareness. She is nurturing. She is abundance.

    Usually, those things are blocked when this card is reversed. So how does that have to do with knowledge I must gain to manifest my intentions?

    Well, clearly I need to focus more on harnessing those things so they *are not blocked* within myself. If I am open to them, my intuition will become a better guide. That much is very true.

  5. What positive energy will emerge in this phase? Two of Wands Reversed

    The two of wands is about planning for the future. The main character literally has the world in his hands as he stares into the distance. It is a powerful message about action, imho.

    Reversed? Ugh. I’m so sick of talking about reversals in this spread. heh.

    Okay, so something is blocking my ability to plan for the future. COULD IT BE ALL THE THINGS ABOVE BLOCKING ALL THE THINGS IN MY LIFE, MAYBE?

    So, the positive spin? I believe that I will be able to focus on my personal goals in this time. Instead of looking out into the world, I can reverse that and look in. Which is great! I have been doing a lot of that lately, and I need and want to continue.

 

I still can’t believe this entire reading had reversed cards.

The summary of this reading is that I have a lot of personal introspection coming my way. I need to focus on using my intuition to help me navigate big decisions, stop worrying about putting structure around myself, and harness my creativity some more. It’s all about me this moon cycle. 

Deck Interview: Tarot of the 78 Doors

Getting a new Tarot deck is thrilling.

I talked about getting to know my Tarot of the 78 Doors deck in a past blog post. I’m the type who takes a while to take in the imagery of a new deck before I begin reading with it. And the best first reading to do is a Deck Interview Spread.

Once I learned about deck interview spreads, I went a little…. overboard. I interviewed my Rider-Waite deck like 6 or 7 times in a row, going through tons of interview spreads and questions I found on the Internet. You’d be surprised (or maybe you wouldn’t be) with how often the cards gave me nearly identical answers to questions–that deck LOVES The Chariot card, let me tell you.

Anyway, there are like a bajillion interview spreads all over the Internet. Tons of questions you can ask your deck to get to know the best way to use it, the types of spreads it will help with, how to learn and grow with your deck.

In my journey with my 78 Doors deck, I chose a pretty simple spread. I don’t know where I got this originally, but it is one I have found to work well since it hits the major things you need or want to know about your deck.

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I knew pretty early in the getting-to-know you phase what this deck’s strengths were likely to be. The imagery in this deck is so literal sometimes, that I had a feeling this deck would be best at tell-it-like-it-is sorts of readings.

FYI: I’ve been doing readings with one of my selenite towers and my zeolite crystal lately. Zeolite is great for removing negative energy from your space, and selenite of course brings peace and help you expand your higher awareness thanks to its connection to the Crown chakra.

Here is how my spread went:

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  1. Who are you? Ten of Cups

    The Ten of Cups is a beautiful card signifying the completion of an emotional journey. Everything is harmonious. Love is abundant. Everyone is content. Everything is good and whole.

    My deck saying it is complete and whole and full of abundant positivity is a wonderful thing! I was actually pleasantly surprised by this answer since it is such an emotionally charged card and I was expecting this deck to be more logical and analytical and in-your-face blunt.

    As a reminder, this deck uses door symbolism throughout to tell stories. An open door means open opportunity and a closed door signifies something is blocked. In the Ten of Cups, the door is wide open. So many opportunities for happiness and joy and love and a journey to emotional completion!

    Of course, being emotionally complete doesn’t mean that my deck can’t be blunt. So let’s continue.

  2. What are your strengths? Four of Wands Reversed

    The Four of Wands is another card of celebration and harmony. I love the way it is depicted in this card, though being reversed adds a different tone to the card.

    First, let’s note that the door is closed. That could signify a blockage along with the reversal of the card.

    When this card is reversed, it could read that something is stopping you from achieving this harmony, this togetherness, this celebration. This deck’s card also shows family, which is lovely.

    When considering the card as a strength of this deck, I believe my deck is saying that its strengths are overcoming those blockages or showing them to me (or those I read for), and helping us to overcome them.

    So my deck says it is full of joy and it is good at helping people find that joy. Can I just say 😍😍😍😍

  3. What are your weaknesses? Seven of Wands

    The Seven of Wands is a card about challenge and perseverance. It is about overcoming obstacles.

    In this deck, the main character is opening a door–which is deeply symbolic. The door seems heavy and hard to move, but the person is doing it. Perhaps it is a struggle, but there the door is opening.

    I read this as my deck’s weakness is with those who are unwilling to do that work, put forth that effort to open the doors to opportunities. The person in this card is working hard, but the door is not yet open. Will they succeed in opening the door, or will they fail?

    The Seven of Wands in the RWS deck shows a lot more conflict, and I can sense that my deck does not want to work with those who are going to fight what it has to say.

  4. What type of readings do you prefer? Four of Cups Reversed

    I love this card in this deck. The imagery is so modern and tells an obvious story of apathy.

    The Four of Cups is definitely about apathy. And about contemplation. However, in this deck, there is an open door–so there are opportunities present for addressing an apathetic nature.

    Reversed, this card could be about someone withdrawing further into themselves. Or someone who is particularly reluctant or struggling to overcome an emotional hardship.

    This deck wants to work with people on those things that are bothering them, and help them to look within themselves for the opportunities that are present to overcome emotional blockages.

    This is why it doesn’t want to work with people who aren’t going to put in some hard work, like the Seven of Wands suggests. It wants to bring you deep and force you to dig in.

  5. What will our partnership bring? Six of Cups Reversed

    So many cups in this reading. Cups and wands, cups and wands. I’ll touch on that in a bit.

    The Six of Cups is another card of family, sometimes. It is also about the past, and looking to the past for answers. I love that this card features an older woman reading to children, as if she is passing on her wisdom.

    This card can also be about children! I like to think about these kids loving the story they are being told, and paying rapt attention to it with that sort of thirst for knowledge that many of us forget as we age.

    Reversed, this card can be again about something blocking that transfer of wisdom. It can be about being obsessed with the past, or being overly nostalgic to the point where you lose sight of the present and future. It can also be about needing to channel that inner child a little bit more.

    I believe that my deck is here to help overcome past issues, or help with introspection surrounding memories that have a strong emotional connection. Maybe it is also here to help me connect with my inner child, and help me connect with my joy of learning.

In summation, my deck is actually here to help people on emotional journeys. I wasn’t quite expecting that, but I’m definitely pleased and excited to keep learning from this deck!

Cups and Wands, Cups and Wands

I told you I would touch on this.

The four suits of the Minor Arcana are connected to each of the four elements. Cups are water, Wands are fire, Swords are air, and Pentacles are earth.

If you are familiar with the natures of these elements, that should tell you a lot about what these suits embody. As a water sign in every possible way (Cancer Sun, Cancer Moon, Pisces Rising!), I have always been drawn to the suit of Cups. I find Wands to be the most in conflict with myself, which is probably because fire and water are often diametrically opposed.

That said, this reading was all fire and water, with more water. That makes me feel as though this deck and I will do well together. We are probably fairly compatible.

The introduction of Wands as fire provides an interesting counter to that–too much water can douse fire, and too much fire can dry up water. These elements must be well balanced.

This deck told me its strengths and weaknesses in the context of fire, and these are things that will help me use the deck to uncover the emotional truths that are needing to be explored. Perhaps I need to channel some fire when working with this deck?

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Another quick note: This reading included only cards from the Minor Arcana, which are cards that are focused on the minutiae of our daily lives, rather than those overarching themes the Major Arcana cards tackle. This deck might be best served for daily work, rather than big life-altering questions and answers (that said, my Hanson Roberts deck seems to like those questions a lot…).

Conclusion

In general, I was pleasantly surprised with this interview. I can’t wait to do more work with this deck! Now that it has been interviewed, it is officially in my cycle for readings. I have one other deck and one on the way that will be added as soon as I feel comfortable with them–and of course I’ll be sharing my journey with those decks here.

Full Moon Spread

For my first blog post, I thought I’d go ahead and get right to the good stuff. I’m going to share a reading.

I want to warn you, this reading gets hella personal. I started this blog with the intent to get real and I’m going to dive right in. I hope you’re willing to join me.

Now, this was a reading I did for myself, using what Biddy Tarot suggested here. I tweaked her spread and loosely followed her ritual. I don’t quite have all the ritual tools I would like, but I set my space by lighting a eucalyptus candle (that covers both fire and air) relocating one of my plants to be near the space, filling a “chalice” with water, and lighting my salt lamp.  I also set some crystal jewelry to the side to charge. There, all the elements were represented.

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The thing about magick is that your intent matters way more than your tools, you know.

So, the stage was set and it was time to try the spread. Here’s a breakdown of how I tweaked Biddy’s Full Moon Spread:

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  1. What have I been manifesting into my life this month?
  2. Where am I now?
  3. What is coming into my awareness this upcoming cycle?
  4. What no longer serves me?
  5. How can I release and let go that which no longer serves me?
  6. What resources do I have to help me in this release?

I chose my Hanson Roberts Deck for this reading, because it is really good with readings about internal growth. And boy did it deliver.

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As you can see, I pulled a couple clarifier cards, but I’ll get to that in a second.

This spread CALLED ME OUT.

Let’s discuss:

  1. What have I been manifesting into my life this month? Four of Pentacles Reversed

    • The thing about the Four of Pentacles is that it can be about saving money–or just control–when it is straight. The card features a man quite pleased with himself as he pulls all his coins underfoot. Maybe you’re pinching your pennies, or maybe you’re just trying to control the things around you. Reversed? This card can be indicative of greed, spending money too freely, or loss of control.I often read reversals as something blocking you from doing what the card would suggest if it were straight, which in this case it could mean that I’m not able to save money because I’m spending it too much. Or I’m not in control over my life because…. well, who knows, really? The point is, the deck is telling me that I’m manifesting a lack of control over finances or just my life in general.

      I feel called the fuck out, tbh.

  2. Where am I now? The Devil

    • Take a deep breath, kids. The deck isn’t telling me I’m in literal Hell. Though this took A TURN, didn’t it?The Devil is an ominous figure, but he gets a bad rap. If we harken back to the oldest traditional stories of the Devil that many of us know, the Devil was actually an angel that fell from grace when he became so full of pride. He was good that became bad, light that became dark. He developed the power to tempt the best of us into sin.

      The Devil in Tarot can be a warning of bad habits that can be problematic if left unchecked, or it can also be indicative of letting loose and exploring one’s wild side a bit (I mean, if you take a close look at the card, the lovers don’t seem too mad about being chained up together if you catch my drift).

      Here, in my reading, the cards are def telling me that I’m falling into some bad habits and I better check myself before I wreck myself.

      Message: Received.

  3. What is coming into my awareness this upcoming cycle? Ace of Cups Reversed.

    • Aces are awesome. When I see an Ace in a reading, I get SUPER excited. I really like Aces in the Rider-Waite deck because they literally show a hand icoming out of thin air to present you with opportunity. The imagery in the Hanson Roberts deck is lovely as well, but it doesn’t quite smack you in the face.Cups are cards of emotion. The Ace of Cups shows a cup that is overflowing with water. As a mega-super-duper water sign (cancer, pisces rising, cancer moon), I can attest to the emotional power that water holds. When you see the Ace of Cups, get ready for an emotional or spiritual breakthrough. You will be filling with love, passion, intuition, creativity, joy, etc etc etc. Wow!

      Reversed, the Ace of Cups is still quite a joyful card, though you have to consider that things are pouring out of you instead of pouring in. In this case, I may have an outpouring of love, passion, intuition, creativity…. none of these things sound bad, no?

      Sounds like the pump is primed for me to dive into some creative pursuits. I guess I chose the right time to start a tarot blog 😉

      Regardless, my cup runeth over, even if my cup is upside down.

  4. What no longer serves me? Two of Swords.

    • The Two of Swords is one of the most easily read symbolic cards in the Minor Arcana, I believe (maybe not as easy as the Three of Swords, which luckily I got both in this reading!). You have a woman who is blindfolded and holding two swords, one in each hand. She has no idea what the hell she’s doing, but clearly some shit is about to go down. Peep that ocean behind her: That looks pretty turbulent, doesn’t it? And the presence of water in a Swords card is significant. Swords are cards of might and mind, and water is a symbol of emotions. Clearly this chick has got some baggage and she is going to have to weigh both her heart and her mind. The moon is there, indicating that she’ll have to trust her intuition a little, too.So this chick doesn’t clearly see or understand the problem, nor does she know the solution.

      But she’s ready to fight, I guess. So there’s that.

      How does this relate to me? I’m an indecisive person. I’m also very emotional and very logical at the same time. If there ever was a card to describe me, it would be the Two of Swords.

      I chose to pull clarifying cards to try to understand what I was being indecisive about. I got The Fool Reversed and Three of Swords Reversed. Sigh.

      • The Fool also gets a bad rap, but I really like him. I think he’s fun. He’s all about spontaneity.  People want him to follow the straight and narrow, but he doesn’t and people think he’s foolish for it.Depending on the reading, he could foretell recklessness, or he could be all about letting loose.

        Reversed? My gut says that if The Fool is about whimsy and fun and fearlessness, then reversed he is about inhibition and fear of the unknown or fear of striking out on a new path/going against the current.

      • Three of Swords is the heartbreak card. I mean look at it: It is a heart being stabbed. Does it need to be any more blatant in its symbolism?When this card shows up in a reading, you have to consider the context. You don’t necessarily look at the card and think OH SHIT YOU’RE GOING TO BREAK UP! (though sometimes….) At times the card tells you to release past hurt and heartache, and helps you move on.

        In reverse, the three of swords can be about stabbing yourself in the heart–or, negative self-talk and bad self-esteem. Or it can just mean you’re dwelling on past hurt and letting things get to you.

      • So basically the clarifying cards were like: You’re struggling with fear of what’s next for you and negative self-talk.

        So, shit.

  5. How can I release and let go that which no longer serves me? Justice.

    • This part of the reading actually made me laugh. The cards just told me that I’m feeling inhibited and down on myself and told me that I can release that by BEING HONEST WITH MYSELF ABOUT IT. Lort.Okay, so Justice. Justice is about facing the music. Owning up to your shit. Ultimate truth. It’s also about making important decisions, and no pressure or anything, but those decisions are gonna be BIG.

      Justice is fair and true and ethical. Justice wants you to acknowledge what you have done, what you are doing, and atone.

      At this part of my reading, I was feeling pretty fucking called out. The cards were basically like: Own up to your bad habits, your shitty self-talk, your fears, and your doubts. Stand up and face them like a grown-up and let’s move on.

  6. What resources do I have to help me in this release? Strength.

    • What I like about the Strength card, is that it is a woman and a cat. I identify with that, you know?For real though, check this chick out: She is the ultimate together chick. She has an infinity symbol above her head. She has no worries, because she knows she can do anything. She also strokes the lion very tenderly, so she has compassion. And who knows how she got the lion to be her partner, and tamed him so easily–clearly she’s persuasive and has strength of words and mind as well.

      Strength is a badass bitch. We should all want to be like her.

      Luckily my cards are telling me I can be like her. I can face my fears, my negative self-talk, my doubts, my insecurities, my bad habits–whatever is holding me back. I can, because I’m a badass bitch, too. I’ve got this. Check me out, y’all. The cards may have called me on all my shit, but they threw some hardcore words of encouragement down at the end.

      Thank GOD(ESS), because homegirl needed them by now.

  • Summary: I have been indulging my bad habits too much lately, and I am at risk of falling victim to those habits if I do not own up to my behaviors and negativity. I am not served by the constant battles between my head, heart, and intuition. I probably ought to bring more intuition into play, or at least find creative release–as the universe is sending love, intuition, creativity, and passion my way soon. I have the strength to own up to and overcome my bad habits.

After a few moments of reflection and meditation, I wrote down some of my bad habits (I’ve been spending too much recently, I have been lazy at home, etc) and I burned the paper. It was cathartic, without a doubt.

I followed this with a quick intention spread–though I would rather set intentions with the New Moon, I wanted to release negative habits and bring in positive ones and wanted to focus on things for this waning moon period. I will cover the second spread I did in a later blog post. That was enough of a deep dive into my personal life for one evening. Phew.

Did you celebrate the full moon tonight? How so? Which Minor Arcana card do you think has the most overt symbolism?